Internal Sunset begins at sunset. In three scenes, the viewers move forward in linear time. Each panel, representing a window pane from my own bedroom, represents the shifting preoccupations of the day, concerns over the self and identity, love and memory, emotion and dreams. Each window contains a poetic title connecting the symbols to both real and fictionalized events. Each window has an accompanying poem that further illuminates and obscures its meaning. Revealed and yet still gone.
Night/puddle/cloud with leaves which remind me of you/
Bloodmoon high/ against the pattern and geometries of stars/
Those great eyes open, looking, blinking/ breathing a sigh/ beginnings only here
Glazed earthenware cloud, moon, and stars, stained porcelain ginko leaves, backdrop of a window frame
4’ x 3’ x 9”
Cobblestone stars as evening breaks
I find the patterns and geometries comforting
It’s nice to think that things can happen again and again and again
And be beautiful for it
Taking the same steps,
I look for the pink against the blue, the glow of orange and purple, the star in the sky
Searching for an earring I lost in the leaves
ripping burrs out of my hair
Finding guidelines and ley lines and spirit paths,
Walking straight lines only,
Points that make up constellations
Points which circle downwards, inwards, within - out
Strawberry drift / bloodmoon pales, takes turns / returns
Promise of rain / of things caught in-between
The middle
Glazed Earthenware Cloud, Cast Strawberry Flavor Melatonin, Moons in triplicate, Porcelain Tear, Cotton Netting, Painted Window Frame
4’ x 3’ x 10”
2022
Summertime crackle of a radio at my ear
I haven't slept fully in five years
Heavy hands over my eyes
Sweat at the corner of my elbow
I’ll drift for a while longer
Strawberry coating on my teeth
Wishing every night
I could climb a ladder up and away from the ground
Go beyond the bed
Beyond the roof
Climb into the sky
And reach for something which reaches back.
Eyes/Tears/Chamomile Flowers/ Growing on a bush in the garden/
Lavender exhaustion cloud/ Sudden weeping in the background
Glazed Earthenware Cloud, Glazed Earthenware Eyes, Stained Porcelain Chamomile Flowers and Tears, Painted Window Frame
4’ x 6’ x 8”
2022
What to say other than I remember
What to say other than sorry
What to say other than thank you
What to say other than see you soon
What to say other than I can still give directions home
What to say other than I know this place
What to say other than I’ve seen you here before
What to say other than I never will again
What to say other than I kept your jacket, the blanket, the sweater
What to say other than I’ve lost everything else
What to say other than ‘on the other side’
What to say other than that I'm going to carry this for a long time, longer, longest still
What to say other than I saw your shadow, it was thin, barely there, the shape of your presence, then gone
What to say other than I’ll remember
